Persecution Invisible in Japan: Globalize the Japanophilosofeeling

Hi! It's Shellil Linn.(^｡^)

On the previous G7 Summit had held in Japan, all G7 leaders  except  Japan were puzzled  and embarrassed why they were invited to Ise Grand Shrine  one of "Worship Hall" in the Shrine.

It is definitely strange if it happened in the other country.

Imagine if you're a G7 leader, and invited to the famous Anglican Church Worship to show-off how their politico-religious influence.in strong enough in England. The attempt will surely cause the trouble all over the Christian World.

Since their has been only a few written material in foreign language what Japanese had been really thinking because the Japanese government encouraged and granted the found only for propaganda-alike research about Japanese culture.

Beautiful Sunset View

Except the missionaries' letters, records or some confidential report made by foreign media and researchers, it is very hard to hear what Japanese people have in their mind. I call the mood or "air" as "Japanophilosofeeling".

Japanophilosofeeling is the Japanese style "sameness sharing feeling" which is unexplainable, virtue but strong feeling of truth, eternity, something beyond the death, heaven beyond the horizon or the country mountain or else what each Japanese person inherited as "it is".

Hence Japanophilosofeeling doesn't have clarified theory, or any kind of religious body since the ancient tradition has been existed in the deep feeling of Japanese people like Jello in a pot or cloud in the sky.

Except for Japanophilosofeeling, most of all religious rituals or theories have some kind of logical born or structure as in Christianity, Muslim, Buddhism, Hindu, Bali-Hindu, even in Voodoo cult.

Especially, in Christianity, Muslim, Buddhism, and Hindu has highly sophisticated philosophy along with the rituals, music, and faith.

In Japanophilosofeeling, majority of ordinary Japanese might concern a taboo to step into the Japanophilosofeeling. As a result, only "blessed" people become mystically religious while the religious literacy is very low in the majority.

Most of Japanese people get really scared if they see the truth face to face in them, or face straight ahead to the Japanophilosofeeling. "We" feel as it might occur the unexpected madness, something similar to fanatic "dance of death"temptation, falling into the darkness, and fire unexpected temper in us which might kill me or others.

Shintoism and Japanese Buddhism are mainly pray and do the rituals to calm down the goddesses and daemons which might cause the anger and temper deeply rooted into the Japanophilosofeeling.

By my lifework to overcome the Japanophilosofeeling through Catholic faith, it is a kind of local religious feeling and just a view for human being.

The problem of Japanophilosofeeling is,  the main body of the Meiji government, the imperialists' misunderstood the religio-political structure of 19th century United States.

Those imperialists misunderstood that the United States is governed by constitutionalize  Christianity as religio-pollitical dominant, and using the Christianity-enpowered constitution instead of strong political authority rule like a "kingdom" or "Tokugawa Shogunate tyranny"

Those of you who read this may have many questions, doubts, or some ???? feeling.

Imperialists' had dreamed to set up the Meiji government authority by their "trinity" born. The strong religious dignity of Imperial Shintoism, the Shintoistic religion-political rule called "Meiji imperial constitution" and the armed bureaucratic authority were the three main factors of "Meiji government trinity born".

To justify the Meiji authority, 19th century Japanese government forced to divid all the Shinto-Buddhism mixed local shrines where they worshiped Amitabh, Maitreya and the local goddesses on their altar side by side.
Until Meiji period, the popular style of mixed shrines were very common in the majority in the farmers, fishers, merchants and craftsmen.

They had never doubt if there are Buddhism statue or Shinto statue  except few intelligent Samurai or scholars who have practiced ancient and modern literature at that time.

Those imperialists also misunderstood that if one nation is settled up as the Imperial Shintoism religion-political authority, the Japanophilosophy has to be spreader out as the global standard as the Christianity is the global religion.

So, the imperialists' persecution against Christianity, communism and all kinds of minority just because the Japanophilosofeeling is based on the mental co-dependence.

On the previous G7 Summit in Ise-Shima, Japan, the Japan Conference handled Abe cabinet wanted to appeal the globalization of Japanophilosofeeling to the world.

Since Japanophilosofeeling is just a virtue feeling without practicing any traditional religion, modern Japanese people are always in anxiety, co-dependent and exclusivism against all kinds of minorities.

That the reason why the people who have strong Japanophlilosofeeling feel that Christians and Muslims are exclusive to polytheism in Japan.

That's why the rightest Japanophilosofeelingists abuse even a little child in Sunday school for the Christians in the world are not broad-minded enough to admit polytheism in Christianity, Catholicism Muslim, or Jewish religion.

Even in my childhood, I was abused by attending Presbyterian  Sunday school, because of above reason.

And no little children, an ordinary housewife or office worker have no way to overview such a difficult interaction approach.

So for majority of Christians and Catholics in Japan are living day by day abuse through the family members, neighbors, friends, or the internet messages.

Until I really reach out to certain confidence in my Catholic faith, I've been verbally abused almost everyday by those who'd never wanted to be aware of Japanophilosofeeling in them.

Majority of Japanese people are still believe in that the Japanophilosofeeling is the world final solution which abolish all the war in the earth, the religious conflict and the cultural conflict in all over the world!

I know Japanophilosofeelingists are just a mare day dreamers in closed group in Japan.

Scarily thing is there are 55 nuclear electric plants on so many volcanoes and faults include the broken Fukushima Daichi nuclear electric plant which nuclear polluted water has been leaking since March 11th, 2011 till now.

Japanophilosofeelingists are not just the troublesome authority for 0.02% of Catholics, Christians' human right, but the serious problem for pan pacific area.

Oh Lord, please help us to find the way to awake those Japanophilosofeelingists from their dangerous fancy dream, Amen.

Persecution Invisible in Japan: "Hands" behind the facts

Hi! It's Shellil Linn.　( ^_^)/~~~

I had serious communication problem by my age seven. I have been having autism and mute, and except a kindergarten principle, no one really mentioned for sufficient support.

The changes in post WWII Japanese society have been gradually upcoming to the social conflict, and the relationship in the local community also had changed at early 1970th.

As I said, I'd had more than enough bad luck and deep life experience in my age seven.

Recently as Abe's dictatorship unvailed the background information on "the Japan Conference", the rightest wing politico-cult movement organization was once a part of "political union of Seicho-No-Ie(a non-Shrinist Shinto sect, which don't designated to the local Shrine and have charismatic founder) when I was in the elementary school.

An autistic kid have too much persistence for something. I have my persistence to clarify the facts that I was really puzzled.

A Ijime, a bully had started in very strange way.

One day, about 5-7 students, who I really don't know except few 2nd grader in the different class. I remember some of them were like 3-5th grader, whom I really don't know who were they.

This Ijime group surrounded me, brought me to the pitcher's mound of the baseball field, just in front of the teacher's office include vice & principle's office.

And they had hit kicked, and abused for thirty minutes or some. NO teacher came out to help me although it happened in the middle of the school ground.

The strange things is I really don't know why this team of Ijime group had done the abuse like a show.

The situation and set-up seemed so artificial to me,  as if a strategic adult had asked those kids to do so. It happened several times, but I really couldn't understand why.

Because not like a typical Ijime cases I've suffered in my life, they seemed like a self-organized gang kids group, but this group had disappeared by one to two months without enjoying their group activity.

I still remember some of their eyes were filled with expressionless anxiety, some fear.

After these Ijime incident, I've learned that it will be non-sense to tell about the Ijime to any teacher in the school. I've felt someone's watching the Ijime from somewhere around the teacher's office.

At that time, I really didn't know who he really was, and why he had attempted the Ijime especially to me, not other kids with a little mental retardation.

Those kids with some mental retardation all moved out from the school area, cause they were living in the rent-house.

Long after this, I'll turn to know the vice principle of the school was the one who had settled-up the Ijime for his purpose. His works done at a public school testify himself as leader member of  present Japan Conference.

I was very fortunate and blessed that I was an autism kid, so I could never understand how much he would wanted to threat me.

In my city, people are still scared to touch on the matters that I accidentally became a witness.

At this period, Sunday school at the Presbyterian Church and a private cram school was the only place I could really feel safe and comfortable.

I had have a lot of agonies on being a mute, but thank our Lord Jesus who gave me the place to be as a child.

Persecution Invisible in Japan: A Suicide

Hi! It's Shellil Linn.(^○^)

At the time June 2016 in Japan, mood of this society is filled only with the manipulated information on news, documentaries, varieties and rig information broadcasted by the extremists. It's really a vomiting condition, and nothing has changed even UN and Report Without Border had warned to our government.

So many ordinary people don't understand why TV give only "selected news" and adulteries everyday. Except few,  the ordinary Japanese never aware if they're cheated. Since Edo period until 1960th, Japanese people are taught to have high literacy, calculation ability without fundamental philosophy to stand on. The very abstract "spirituality" had already corrupted the "Galapagos"  or closed indulgence.

Majority of people are well-tamed under depression, persecution and  social threat.

It is still my painful memories to call back.  The old lady Sayo's suicide.

As Toshi became an elementary school kid, he started to tease the old lady Sayo, his grandmother so harsh words. Mrs. Sayo was inspired by Toshi's brave to abuse the old lady Sayo, she asked her mother-in-law to do all the household works except cooking.

On my today's view, the old lady Sayo seem to have not only the mental disorder, but also many kinds of physical disorder by aging. She tried her best to do all the house cleaning, washing, even bathroom cleaning in the evening everyday before Mr. Sayo come home.

Mrs. Sayo would never let Mr. Sayo notice the truth. According to Mrs. Sayo's theory, if the Christians are believe in "the perfect one God", then Christians has to be a "perfect person".

The old lady Sayo's face turn dark and dull as the first semester end, right before the summer vacation.

At the second semester, her face became so seriously troubled and struggled. One day the old lady Sayo said to me "I made mistake raising my son. I've made him wrong decision on his marriage".

I couldn't really understand what she really meant at my age seven, but, I really blamed myself if I wasn't a mute at that time.

One day in late autumn, the old lady Sayo said "I'm almost given up, sweet honey" when I was with her cleaning the big bath room with the wide Japanese style bathtub and washing area.

Maybe I was the only existence for the old lady Sayo to confess her true feeling. Maybe our Lord was right and just to let a mute autism girl  be beside  to this poor old lady.

She said "sweet honey, can you visit me several days after this?". I
've just nodded, but felt some anxiety being in touch with  the real adult's world.

On the assigned day, I visited the old lady Sayo staying alone at her house. There was a Bible verse card with some purple flower on a wooden pillar.

She asked me to sit in the formal style and taught me the Palms is the poems and songs  of King David who remained us the famous prayers in the Bible.

And she taught me the Palms 23:1-4.

I really don't know if a seven years old can memorize those Bible verses by just once or twice reading without knowing the Chinese characters which were too difficult to second grade girl although I ' been a bookworm since babyhood.

I still remember the part of "literal oral version" Bible verse which is already not in use since 1985.

Lord is my Shepherd;
 there is nothing to lack.
In green pastures you let me graze;
 to safe water you lead me;
 you restore my strength.
You guide me along the right path for the sake your name.
Even when I walk through a dark valley,
I fear no harm for you are at my side;
 your rod and staff give me courage.

I don't thing the old lady Sayo expected me to memorize it or try to understand  it sometime in my life.
I also don't know why she told me these verses. I'll ask her this first time when I meet her in heaven.

She was satisfied 'cause I could repeat the verses twice.
She said "believe in Christ when you're really difficult. He'll surely help you. Believe in our Lord."
And then she said, "sweet honey, don't come to this place any more, OK? Never come here."

If I was' t a mute, I could ask her something. But, only word I could say was "Yes".

She sent me back, and hanged herself at the dark living room crossbeam of the ceiling.

A seven year old girl was the last person she talked before her suicide.

The next day was maybe Saturday or Sunday. My father and the old neighbors told me that the old lady Sayo hanged herself, and died on the evening about five to six o'clock, several hours after I left her house.

Her family was out somewhere I don't really know, and came back home in the evening, and found her hanged in the living room.

My father asked me what had happened for he need to tell my words to the police. He sat at the old rent house corridor, and try to do the hearing as much as he can.

I don't remember what I said to my dad. The vision of hanged old lady was in my image, and I knew  the fact that I'll never see her alive again.

That was my first grief and suicide I've experienced in my life.

For a sensitive autism child like me, I couldn't cry for several decades after the incident. The old lady Sayo was gone forever from the earth, and I've received unlimited love from her for two years.



Her suicide changed my life. I turned to think back whole incident again and again to know what was really happened.

Around that time, I started to day-dream on re-mission the Christianity in some European country to notify that the Christian faith isn't just something inherited as nice joyful Christmas and Easter, but to be with our Lord Christ.

Her suicide was truly "a grain of wheat falls to the ground" to me.

I mentioned that there are three factors on this incident. It was a family problem, and the persecution against Christianity was bully, and the old lady Sayo's personal interaction.

Around this time, the darkness in my life is stepping closer to me.

At that time, I was too young to understand what have been really going on around me.

Persecution Invisible in Japan: An Unwritten Will

Hi! It's Shellil Linn.m(_ _)m

It is still painful memories in me although the long time has past since then.

After the first year in the elementary school year was over, I suffered Hikikomoiri, a mental syndrome that a patient don't come out of one's room or refuse to be in touch with others on the spring.

When I was seven, Hikikomori hadn't recognized in this society, so as autism and mutism.

No one could really feel my existence like a professional Ninja in the old time. The difference with Ninja was, I wasn't intended to do so by my will.

I had estranged divergence in my psycho system until in my thirtieth, so I really didn't know how to show other people "I'm here!".

All I knew at that time was "people don't feel my existence unless their eyes on me by their will".

And the stress leave for a week was the first foot step in to the adult world for me.

My home phone number was  area code with 0110, and the police dial in Japan is 110. That was time to switch from black phone with round dial to push button phone with number keys.

One day I took a phone shouted "my office is in fire! Send me fire trucks!". So, I told him that the fire department call is 119, not 110, and my home isn't a police office nor an emergency call operator centre.  He, a small company owner got mad on me, for him my speaking tone sounded as "a stupid middle school graduate girl".

I just said what I've learned in the picture book I've read in the elementary school.

This incident opened me the world. The fire department researcher, fire insurance company investigators and the NTT customer service had visited me when I was in my home alone!

They confirmed a little girl is alone at home, and did the best seven years old could do.  The fire insurance investigators tried their best to explain me the system of fire insurance. He said if the fire reaches the ceiling, the insurance payment will raise more than twice than not reached, and the guy insured had almost equal amount of depth to the insurance payment.

They were kind enough to notify NTT the telephone system  in Japan to change our phone number to without a number changing deposit payment.

It was the first incident I'd face to learn the world out of my childhood.

I also saw a police man arrest a left movement woman fighting against the US army presence around my home. A police man try to beat a woman with pink helmet, and when that woman try to brush away that police man's hand, he arrested her for the obstruction charge of official duty.

And the third one changed my life after all.

Garden of the Presbyterian Church I've played.

As Toshi, the old lady Sayo's grand son became 1st grade student in a same elementary school I was, Toshi started to say rude words to his grandmother, the old lady Sayo.  And the family abuse had chased the old lady Sayo to melancholy symptom by the summer.

Around that time, the Presbyterian  pastor planned the pilgrimage to Jerusalem and asked the old lady Sayo to join the pilgrimage tour.

Mr. Sayo was so fascinated to show his devotion and thanks to the old lady Sayo, his mother.  He announced when Mrs. Sayo invited me to the supper at Sayo's home, to make sure that he has an evident for his declaration.

At the Autumn 1972, the old lady Sayo had the first and the last pilgrimage to Jerusalem.

And Mrs. Sayo's jerous raise up higher than ever, and she insisted the old lady Sayo to all the house hold work except cooking. The old lady Sayo seemed having health trouble at that time, but she was insisted to clean all houses, toilet, and the bathroom.

At the winter of 1972, the old lady Sayo was treated as a convenient maiden of Mrs. Sayo, and the old lady Sayo said that she is already close to her limit.

I've felt something really tragic from her eyes, but there's not much things I could do.

I still hope that my presence wasn't bothering her, but some slight consolation for her.

There is still a little regret that I couldn't do much to avoid the tragedy.  I was only seven years old girl with invisible handicap at that time.

But the unwritten will of the old lady Sayo is still in my life.